Well shoot, it’s been a hot minute since I’ve been here. More than that actually. It’s been 5 months. Last time I wrote it was my all about my birthday and it was soaked in God’s faithfulness and how good He is. Which honestly, I didn’t really plan on blogging again, but I’ve had this feeling stirring lately where I miss it. The way God puts things on my heart is different and the way I write I’ve learned, after years of comparing, it’s actually okay – it’s the way God made me to communicate and you guys actually like it. So honestly I’m just here to keep you updated – let you know what God’s speaking to me lately and I hope you can get something from it and learn from my mistakes and be better because that’s all I’m trying to do too.
There’s something that God has been putting on my heart that takes more than a instagram caption and it’s this idea of waiting on what He’s promised and how to do it and also how not to do it, cause duh let’s just be real, I miss it sometimes. When He’s saying go right and I think it’s left and He says stop and I suddenly think I’m suppose to go and then He opens a door and I look at it real confused because it’s not at all what I pictured or wanted.
Can you relate?
God promises something.
and then you wait.
you read your Bible.
you work on you.
you love yourself.
you go to yoga and drink a green juice.
you join an all women’s life group because #community.
you get a new hair cut.
you read your Bible.
you get lonely.
you begin to lose hope.
you read your Bible.
& you wait.
Ever been there? Just me? K cool. Here’s the thing – this isn’t something that He’s put on my heart to put in a blog post because my wait has come to pass. I know, you’re probably on your way to exit the screen, but hear me out for a minute – this is for the ones who are still waiting and you need to know that it’s on the way. He didn’t forget. He didn’t move it down on His list of to do’s. He didn’t take it back. He didn’t change His mind. Believe it or not – God’s kind of got this thing with timing and it’s PERFECT. Like PERFECT. And no matter how hard the wait is – when the time comes and the wait is over and He shows up (cause He will) it will be more than worth it and I hope you believe that.
I was up ALL night last night. (by choice…#whoami?) For those who know me, you know that doesn’t sound like me – but the Holy Spirit woke me up in the middle of the night and said something so clearly that I couldn’t go back to sleep after – so then I did the most logical thing *after praying cause duh* and I got on pinterest and started taking my boards v seriously, like my life.
He said “remember when your parents surprised you with a trip to your favorite place and they said ‘we have everything taken care of…the hotel, the flights, dinner at your favorite place, everything is all booked – we’re leaving (insert future date), all you have to do is pack – remember that?”
And then He said this, which got me staying up all night.
“that’s what I’m doing with this promise, I already have it all planned out – the details are made up of all your favorite things – I’ve got everything covered, all you have to do is prepare yourself the best you can and show up when it’s time to go.”
SO SWEET right? I love when I can hear the Lord clearly – I’m learning His voice and it’s the sweetest sound that I know, it’s as if it puts this unwavering peace inside my heart that I can’t get anywhere else but from Him, HOWEVER things like that keep a girl up and thinkin’ ya know? Because if you’re anything like me, you begin to ask questions – like okay cool, but when? and where? and why? and is it hot there? do i need 2 swimsuits or 10? You know..the important questions…
it’s one thing to hear those things – then another to get up and keep going and to keep repeating the same old process that you’ve been doing for weeks…months…or years even. It’s hard. I get it. I really do, but I’ve learned in the wait the best thing you can do is pay attention. Pay attention to the littlest of things and God will speak just loud enough to give you enough strength to wake up another day and do it all over again until whatever it is He promised comes to pass.
This morning I was TIRED. Real tired because lack of sleep and that pinterest hole I got lost in – but I got up early anyway and went to the gym and there was this maintenance guy out front and he said, “good morning! ready to hit the ground running?” (well sir, if you really want to know….but I didn’t go there) I just smiled and said yeah and almost instantly the Holy Spirit said, “hey that was for you, are you ready?”
and then after power walking my legs off because power walking > running, I made some coffee in my mug that I honestly just bought because well look how cute the photo turned out – and again the Holy Spirit instantly got my attention as I was filling it up – “stay ready – it’s coming in hot.”
So I don’t really know if this helped you – but my favorite thing to do in the wait? Besides drink green juice and do yoga? Is get that Ephesians 3:20 mindset engraved in my heart. It’s the only thing that keeps me going honestly. I know what He promised. I know He said there’s something better and to be honest – if I didn’t write this down now – my testimony on the other side wouldn’t be as powerful – so I can’t wait to tell you all about it when He does it again because YES HE WILL. He always does. It’s hard to wait, but to know that whatever it is, is exceedingly and abundantly MORE than I could dream up on my own is worth it 10000.